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Originally Posted by msggunny
This might make some of you wonder what the fuck i have been smoking, but o fucking well.
I dont know if everyone has the same thing i get occasionally. Its like a "dark" spirit takes over. It happens usually when i am home, alone, half drunk. Thoughts go through my mind, thoughts that make me shiver when i remember them later. Thoughts that movies are made about.
Why does my dark-side come out when my defenses are shut down, why does my mind get consumed by thoughts of horror and sadness?
It never happens when i am with others, never happens when my self defense mechanisms are intact. Is this normal?
Ok, so i have lived a life that has made me accept and ready myself for some very "dark" times. I have smelled death.
What is this? Is it part of "man"? are we all innately conditioned to this?
Why is it that we (humans) can isolate this until we need it, and some cant?
Hmmmm......
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Been there with you buddy,
as Worriors we all suffer from this, all i can say is seeing my babies smile bring me right out of it, you need to find something that brings you enough joy to shake you out of it.
Its just someting we need to learn to live with and control i guess
